How long ‘til I breakdown? How long ‘til I finally absorb that you’re leaving? How long ‘til tears illuminate my eyes like jewels?
Lately, I’ve been the positive one. I’ve been the one assuring him that I’ll wait. I don’t know what’s going on in his mind when he tells me to wait for him. But I know, there is fear.
I don’t bring the topic to the table because I’m trying to runaway from it. It’s not that I don’t want to talk about it.. It’s just that.. I can’t bring myself to believe that we’re gonna be apart for how many months. I got used to having him close for three years, you see. It would take me time to adjust to the situation.
To say that I am scared is an understatement. The thought comes in like a tornado on my rearview mirror.
But I learned that fear is a beast that feeds on attention. The more you put your mind to it, the more it bites on your neck and breaks your spine. So in as much as possible.. I avoid the fear and concentrate on what comes after.
It’s like a bungy jump, we jump for our life in exchange for the joy and fulfilment we’ll feel after. A combination of fear and excitement. What better combo could I ask, right? ;)
And above all.. Love is waiting.
"I love you. Remember. They cannot take it. "
Everything you love is here(via lovequotesrus)
not a hopeless romantic, but i really think that a candlelit dinner by the beach is.. uhm.. really really nice. wink wink.
"Ang ganda mo naman!"
"No, mas maganda ka po!"
"Nag mana lang ako sa’yo."
Mga punyetang nilalang! Paano kayo magmamana sa isa’t isa, e hindi naman kayo magkaano-ano?
HAHAHAHA engkkkkk ❌❌❌
It scared the demons out of me. Hahahahahahaha. No, really. Nastestress pa rin akong isipin hanggang ngayon. I bet that person heard sounds.
"And if you call me at 4 am, too sad to even say hello, I will listen to your silence until you fall asleep. If you need to cry I will not wipe your tears away because you are only human and sometimes tears are as close to laughter as you can get and that’s okay. If you get sleepy I will let you drool on my arm and I won’t laugh at you if you snore too loud. If you need to yell so hard that your voice cracks and your knees fail I will hold you up and yell with you. If you get so angry you punch your hands red I will ice your knuckles and tell you that wounds heal both inside and out, and just like the cold that is harsh and burning, I will always be the warmth to soothe you and make you feel better. I will love you. "